Let bygones be bygones. With so little time left, I need to cherish every single passing moment that I get to enjoy :)

Let the gambling and binge eating begin! (Ok actually it already started yesterday.)

Happy cny everyone :)

2011 was a pretty bad year, especially seeing all the angsty posts I had in this livejournal haha.

Here's hoping that 2011 will end off in a high note for me, and that 2012 will be a better year :) (although I will be spending the majority of it being enslaved) but there's always a tiny hope that miraculous things will happen.

Much love to all the people I had this year that provided distractions from all the shit that happened to me this year. Sincerely wish that I won't lose touch with everyone even as we embark on our separate paths :(

Oh and after being deprived of going overseas in my life for the past few years, I'm finally going somewhere (Korea) in January :') <3 to the people who made this possible, zigzagzenith and Syakir.

Overall, I have been rejected many, many times this year. It especially hurts when I was so close to achieving something and failed in the end. Recently got rejected a week ago, and it was a major one. But after going through this horrendous year, I've grown so much stronger that I get over failure much easily than I initially could. After all, it's not a dead end.

Last few days of 2011, shall spend them wisely :).

I AM SICK OF BEING DEPRESSED ALL THE TIME. I'm starting to hate myself.

Why can't I just be content with life for once...

I have become so much stronger mentally this year, but I feel like I spent the majority of the year feeling extremely down. I really miss the times when I was constantly glad with life :(

I'm still waiting for the upturn in this series of misfortunes.

Maybe I'm secretly a perfectionist after all, even though I've always thought I'm a very carefree person. A carefree person won't be so easily affected by setbacks ._.

Can't wait for May to be over! Horrible, horrible month. At least when it's June I can focus on one thing and ONE thing only. Gosh what a refreshing thought :O not having to focus on a gazillion things.

I think my character has become much stronger over the past few months, partly due to all the shit I had to go through, which is good :)

I need to start cherishing the last few months left in RJ before I start to regret it! And I still refuse to call it RI, idc.

Dear World,

Life has not been treating me well lately. Perhaps it is putting me through such adversity to prepare me for even greater ones ahead. Pain that is felt after experiencing it beforehand becomes less sharp. Maybe it is a way to indicate to me that I should change my life goals entirely, I have been focusing on the wrong stuff the whole time, I should change.

Either way, I'm tired. But one has to just keep swimming, like what Dory from Finding Nemo said. (Very very nostalgic movie).

It still hurts, but I am slowly accepting what has happened. There are much greater tragedies happening everywhere concurrently, so it really puts what I have to go through in perspective.

I will survive and move on.

Sincerely,

Me.

Current happiness is inversely proportional to future success.

Sigh this just resonates so strongly with how I feel right now :(

(Yay I finally updated this dead lj after my last post which was like one day after new year's day.)

I have not updated this dead pile of junk for a longggggggggg time HAHA. Since it's already 2011 I shall update it!

My new year resolution for 2011 is to survive all the challenges I'm going to face this year and not crumble in the process D:

Happy new year!(To me,since nobody reads this thing anymore so I'm posting for my self-amusement :D)

I want to run away.But I hate how over-ambitious I can get sometimes that I'm willing to go through all these shit.

It may not even pay off eventually.

And I admit my intentions are not pure at all.

I want it to end.

Doing all these,

Am I truly happy?

Sometimes things seem so pointless,but I just continue anyway,in hopes of achieving the unknown.